Wednesday, November 02, 2005

I'm Not Saying She' A Gold-digger

I have been thinking about this since Panini's post on what we have preference about in members of the opposite sex ect. And from a conversation with my home teacher who says that older women, have everything they want in life, and a man, already planned out down to the color of the couch in the future livingroom that they will someday have! And I think girls, that maybe all of us have a little gold-digger in us somewhere? jk, I guess I speak only for myself. I have been making new goals lately on all kinds of things, including what I expect out of the future man that I at some point will marry. My ideas change constantly! And probably my ideal man is a conglomeration of every man that I have at one point liked, which for me, would be an endless number of people! Starting with my thrid-grade love who, I suddenly had a crush on again last weekend! because he so nicely offered to walk me to the bathroom at church and back again, and that was just so cute and thoughtful! I'm easily entertained, yes. Anyway....it was a flavor of the afternoon....

(p.s. this is not "personals" ad!)

If I were to publish my fantasy, I would have to say, he would be handsome of course, have startling eyes, blue is my preference, and have something attractive and irritable about him, such that I would not really want to like him, but I just simply would not be able to help it! He would be passionate about things, not necessarily passionate about the same things I am passionate about, but he would have passions, opinions, interests, and strong ideals. I like the kind that do not need to be in the lime light, and do not need to be the center of attention at all times. Quiet presence; who doesn't have anything they feel that they need to prove to the world. Don't know if that and the following would go together, but hopefully he would not be the type to be jealous if I was a social person who liked to talk to and converse with all types of people, who would not mind if I at times enjoy a bit of the spotlight myself. Hopefully patient, hopefully a sense of humor, hopefully wants a bundle of children, and will let me mess up the house with scrapbooking and art projects. Would appreciate someone who can hold an intellectual conversation on just about anything, and enjoy literature. Would love someone who likes to camp, and off-road, and otherwise enjoy nature, have an adventurous and artistic streak, and as Anne of Green Gables says, "could be bad if he wanted to be, but chooses not to," which at times is expressed by things like, cheating during board games, and stealing a kiss.

I have lots of extras I would like, okay, well, maybe only one big one. I would love it if he had a big black pickup truck, but that, is probably going to be a fantasy that I will only maintain in my head! As for my future house, I have 3 things I would love: one, a garage I can park in, so that I don't have to scrape off my windows, two, a big bed with lots and lots and lots of huge fluffy pillows on it, and three, a library with a big comfy couch and romantic lighting!

Okay, this post is too revealing, and probably won't be up long, but let it be known, that I really do just want a nice-looking guy who thinks I'm cute, who is righteous and loves me, and is realtively "normal," first guy I really find like that, I will snatch away! jk

Anyway, enough of my musings...

4 comments:

SJ said...

What an exquisite soul. Opening yourself to your fragile ambitions is quite commendable.

Panini said...

Well said! I'm right with you...except for the truck part...I prefer Honda or beat up & old (then you know that he's not extravagant) but as you pointed out...these things aren't the cream. And I love your list!

So, I didn’t know you had a crush on that boy in 3rd grade! How did I miss that?! ;) I saw him walk you to the bathroom and he is a precious ‘flavor’ for the afternoon. He occasionally beguiles me like that too.

aquamarine said...

I can almost picture him now, Esperanza. And the gossip in me is really starting to wish I knew said boy of the third grade. What manners.

Esperanza said...

Okay, so the truck part in me, is the gold digger part in me! I think if we all dug down a little, there would be one such item on everybody's list...