Tuesday, January 17, 2006

TheEsperanza-Pinata

I Drove past the Creamery on 9th a few days ago, and there were about 35 little pinatas hanging from the ceiling in the checkout isles. I laughed in spite of myself. Ever feel like a pinata? I think I feel this way every January, when I come back to Provo laden with the aspirations and good-intentions for the New Year. Then I feel beaten down with discouragement, wanting my dreams to instantly come true, my goals to instantly be accomplished, and somehow think everything will come about without too much effort, and all the effort I do put in feels like spinning wheels. Call it post-holiday-blues, or post-goal setting-disappointment, but I have had it every day for the last week and 1/2! Well, luckily I woke up to a brighter day this past weekend, kicked my self in the royal-rumpus, and decided, once again, I can do it! So, I have doubled my efforts this week, (I know its only Tuesday!) And not only that, but I went to Ward Prayer on Sunday, FHE on Monday, and to Institute on Tuesday! That is a record beyond all records for me! But hey, gotta be running through the finish line on this soon-to-be-ending year of my life!

9 comments:

SJ said...

And I noticed you signed up for our ward water polo team on the email today. Way to go!

Esperanza said...

NO, that was a fluke, got conned into it, no way am I really doing it!

Scully said...

Ward water polo? Wow. I total understand, E, I think it also comes from having plans that get sidetracked, or stymied by things like not yet receiving your W-2. So everything gets put on hold, because you can't really buy a new bed if you don't know yet if you are getting a refund or paying more taxes. Oh, wait, that is me. Anyway, I totally understand and I think we should do something extraordinarily grand and exciting for your birthday next week.

aquamarine said...

Ah, new year's resolution guilt! It is a stiff medicine to take. Been dosing myself about five times a day since I so publicly announced all mine. Oh well. Life happens which is still a good thing too. By the way, this is early but Happy Birthday!!

Esperanza said...

Yes, lets! Because I am frankly, having a mild-identity crises on the turing 27 part! So good to hear from you Scully!

SJ said...

Ya, I was kinda thinking that would be a scary activity to do. Swimsuits and guys in our ward-yikes!

SJ said...

Oh and happy birthday-let's rock the kasbah!

Scully said...

I vote for a huge b-day bash. Loud music, fizzy drinks, and all your favorite foods. Start working on a guest list, E! Including your 5 most recent crushes.

Esperanza said...

5 most recent crushes? scary. And bathing suits and ward members, also very scary. LOL> And yes, we need b-day ideas...