Thursday, October 01, 2009

Things Fall Apart

I cried this morning. Good thing it was during my prep hour. I have put in 3 - 12 hour days this week at work. I'm flying out to my grandfather's funeral right after school - I hope I don't miss my plane.

I try to keep it all together. I work full time as a teacher - don't kid yourself - the work is not done at 2:30 p.m. I grade papers a couple of hours a night, take on the extra responsibility of the school newspaper, am an advisor of the Hope club, am the school PR person, and end up being asked to chaparone dances, participate in spirit rallies and it seems like a million other things. I also just started my reading endorsement program where I take graduate education classes one full night a week on Tuesdays which requires me to read about 30 + pages of research writing a week and write a 2- page paper each week. I try to go to the gym everyday and have some sort of a social life, go to the temple and church and fill my church callings.

Last week I missed two days of school because I finally broke down. Sick. This weekend I found out my grandfather died and I will miss a day of school this weekend as I attend a last minute funeral service in Columbus, Ohio.

Things fall apart. I have 150 + essays to read, I didn't get my visiting teaching reports in, the student newspaper is now over a week overdue and not finished. My brother and sister think I am ignoring them, and I started my period yesterday. I finally cried this morning.

10 comments:

Kelly said...

Ohhh Krystal!! I am so sorry! Hang in there! It will all work out for you. When I get super stressed and busy, I usually breakdown too then I focus on one thing at a time then some how it all works out. I am so sorry to hear about your grandfather. You will be in my prayers!

esperanza said...

And I just missed my airplane and there are no flights that I can take to get there before the funeral services are over. Crying again.

Katie said...

Oh, I feel your pain sister. You're going to be fine, because you're awesome and I can tell you are an amazing teacher, and that's what amazing teachers do: they pull it together one day at a time and survive. I've been experiencing similar frustrations lately. I feel like I keep getting handed added responsibilities, which is fine, but it gets so overwhelming sometimes. Everyone thinks teaching is such a plush job. Ha! I hardly ever get to leave the school before five, and then I come home to grade papers and work on lesson plans until 10 at night. I keep reciting to myself June, July, and August, June, July, and August =-)

JMadd said...

I'm so sorry. Life can be crappy... really crappy. Next week will be better. If I wasn't taking narcotics, I would fly you to Ohio myself so you could get to the funeral. I also don't know how to fly, but that's just a minor detail.

panini said...

I should think you're crying! That's sucky sucky sucky! I'm so sorry. Every once in awhile, a check mark for completion and full points can be in order. Just say goodbye to those essays. You don't need them in your life right now. And you can pass them back, call it a rough draft, and ask for revisions with more sensory details and dialogue.

panini said...

seriously . . . you can spend a week teaching them how to add it in, too.

The Gurrs said...

You sweet girl, I am so sorry! Why does everything have to happen at the same time? I wish I could be there to take you out for a yummy shake!
I guess you'll just have to have your cute man give you a nice stress relieving night out.

Duludes said...

I'm so sorry Krystal. I wish I was closer so that I could help cheer you up. Just remember your loved and are in many peoples prayers.

WalkConkies said...

Oh, Krystal! I'm so sorry. I want to call you right now, but I'm guessing you are teaching. Please call me anytime - I'd love to hang out one of these nights. I'm so sorry you missed your plane and that you are dealing with the passing of your Grandpa this weekend. I hope conference helped relieve a little of the stress. You are amazing - but don't feel like you have to be doing amazing things 110% of the time - you need a break now and then too! Remember to say YES to YOURSELF now and then and don't be afraid to say you can't do it all at the same time! (Okay, that was a pep talk to myself too!) Love ya tons!!!

Rena said...

You know all of that sounds like an abnormal week for us teachers, but really...this is our life EVERY WEEK!
I'm sorry about your grandpa. My husband's grandpa died last week, so the craziness is still fresh. Eat some chocolate and read the scriptures.
you'll find peace in one of them.